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that’s where this week has gone. my sister went home. two of my friends received cancer diagnoses. my hair hurts and it’s decided now is the time to fall out.

i go back to the hospital on monday for dose number two of eshap chemotherapy. of course i am dreading it. i hate knowing that i’m going to feel like shit, and i think it’s worse this time because i know just exactly how shitty.


my sister’s one-day sister-in-law (i just know it!) tagged me in a facebook note, “end of year meme.”  it would have been sooo easy to use the majority of her answers because, dude, it’s like she wrote them just for me!  but, alas, she did not, so i’ve crafted my own responses just for you.


  1. what did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
    was diagnosed with and treated for cancer

  3. did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
    i don’t make them

  5. did anyone close to you give birth?
    most recently, the greenes welcomed their twin girls

  7. did anyone close to you die?
    i lost an old friend.  he was a great man.

  9. what countries did you visit?
    chemoland.  it sucked.
    walt disney world

  11. what would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
    energy and hair

  13. what date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
    june 12th, it was the last time i nursed my daughter before i started chemo

  15. what was your biggest achievement of the year?
    resuming nursing after battling cancer

  17. what was your biggest failure?
    having to stop nursing
    yes,  i realize that was beyond my control, but to me it felt like failure.

  19. did you suffer illness or injury?

  21. what was the best thing you bought?
    our new house

  23. whose behavior merited celebration?
    my mother’s
    my husband’s
    my daughter’s

  25. whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
    northern virginia’s drivers

  27. where did most of your money go?
    our new house

  29. what did you get really, really, really excited about?
    taking my daughter to disney for the first time

  31. what song will always remind you of 2008?
    the hot dog song

  33. compared to this time last year, are you:
    happier or sadder?  happier
    thinner or fatter?  fatter
    richer or poorer?  poorer

  35. what do you wish you’d done more of?
    crafted more homemade gifts
    visited more friends
    blogged more
    taken more photos and video of my family and friends

  37. what do you wish you’d done less of?
    had less cancer
    gained less weight

  39. how did you spend christmas?
    at our new house with my husband’s parents, brother, sister-in-law, and my parents, grandparents, aunt & her family and her godparents & their family

  41. did you fall in love in 2008?
    every day

  43. how many one-night stands?
    (seriously?  this one i have to change to something more mommy blog- friendly)
    what changes did you make to “green up” your lifestyle?
    collected more reusable shopping bags and got my mom in the habit of using them, too
    started a compost pile
    chose a tankless hot water heater for the new house

  45. what was your favorite tv show?

  47. do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
    hate?  that’s much too strong of a word.

  49. what was the best book you read?
    did i read any books?  i know i started reading anthony bourdain’s the nasty bits, but i can’t even remember if i’ve finished it. 

  51. what was your greatest musical discovery?
    steve burns’ and the flaming lips’ steven drozd’s ” i hog the ground”

  53. what did you want and get?
    to nurse my daughter again

  55. what did you want and not get?
    skinnier faster

  57. what was your favorite film of this year?
    this is the last question i answered because, honestly, i can’t remember watching any movie in its entirety aside from charlie wilson’s war. so i guess that’s it.  though if i’d had opportunity to watch the x-files: i want to believe, i’m sure that would have beat out charlie wilson.

  59. what did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
    went to my birthday party, 35

  61. what one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
    having more energy and less nausea after chemo

  63. how would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
    chemo casual

  65. what kept you sane?
    prozac and ativan

  67. which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
    oh, how i love me some brit-brit.  girl is a spectacular disaster!

  69. what political issue stirred you the most?
    the presidential election, though that was more of a circus then an issue

  71. whom did you miss?
    my friends from orlando

  73. who was the best new person you met?
    my chemo nurse, danna

  75. tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
    this is your life, right now.  this is what you get.  stop preparing for “someday” and start living it the way you want to now.

  77. quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
    “it’s a brand new day,  whatcha  waitin’ for?”

  79. tag five people to post their answers to this 2008 wrap-up meme. please link back to this blog from yours.
    non-lucid drivel
    the twinkies

    motherhood and cancer
    life with the moonhils

hunter, miss d and emma‘s mamas all used to be disney girls with me.  hunter is the latest and greatest in my flock of lovely ladies who’ve donated their hair to locks of love.

i am so proud of you, hunter!  your mommy sure is raising you to be a wonderful person with a kind spirit and genuine thoughtfulness for others.  i love your new ‘do!

hunter before hunter's pony
hunter's pretty new bob

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if you’re considering donating your hair.  download the hair donation form and include a note on it about my blog’s drive.

i hope you’ll encourage your friends and family to do so as well.  let your stylist know and ask them to spread the word.



emma donated ten inches this past wednesday!  look at those gorgeous curly locks.  i just adore her new tousled summertime look!  i’m so proud of you emma!  what a wonderful little lady you are growing up to be.

emma & miss trisha

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if you’re considering donating your hair.  download the hair donation form and include a note on it about my blog’s drive.

i hope you’ll encourage your friends and family to do so as well.  let your stylist know and ask them to spread the word.




miss d’s dear friend just donated her shiny, golden tresses this week.  what a little doll she is!  here’s what her mama wrote to me:

“attached is a picture of my jenny. she is 7 years old and is great friends with darienne.  she decided a while a go she wanted to grow her hair and donate it (i didn’t even know she knew about it).  she was soooo excited to get it cut.  we went today and she was the star of the salon when she had them cut her hair.  her total was 11 inches of beautiful blond hair.  i watched her sleep the other night with her long, wavy blond hair on the pillow and almost cried since i knew it would soon be gone.  i did cry when she cut it today.  on the way home she said  she loved her new shorter cut and was so happy she could do this.  i was so proud of her.  she now has a sassy little bob that matches her personality!!  her grandma died 2 years ago from mantle cell lymphoma (at 69 years old) so i guess that may have been an influence on her, not to mention her aunt donated to locks of love as well.  good luck with your battlem  – keep on fighting!!!

— nancy”

nancy, thank you so much for your kind words. i’m so sorry for your family’s loss, and i am so deeply touched by your daughter selfless act of giving and generosity.  i know how proud you are of her, please let her know that i am, too!

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if you’re considering donating your hair.  download the hair donation form and include a note on it about my blog’s drive.

i hope you’ll encourage your friends and family to do so as well.  let your stylist know and ask them to spread the word.


i’m a slave for you.  no, really.  i think about you day and night.  bloggity this, bloggity that, blog, blog, blog.  i know i’ve been a little distant the past week, but i think you’ll be pleasantly surprised with what excitement i have for you tonight!

as i mentioned on friday, jenny came for a visit.  she also shaved my head.  surprise!

there’s a video, too, but we’ll have to wait for jen to send it to me.  it is sure to delight one and all!

i’ve been out and about sans hair and all went well.  well, i mean, jeez, how else did you think it would go?  no small children ran in fear, the elderly have taken a keen interest in me and the teens are holding strong, remaining totally self-absorbed and obnoxious as ever.

nugget’s tantie is here until tuesday and then her grandmamie will be back.  i have chemo dose #4 this thursday.  i can’t believe it’s almost time for that again!  the first week in august i’ll be getting pet and ct scans to see just how much cancer ass the chemo’s kicked already.



jen donated sixteen and a half inches to locks of love.  she’s the fourth participant in my drive and one of the most beautiful people on the planet.

so when are you cutting your hair?


just a quick update while I wait for the latest dose of percoset to start working!

linda came by and cut my hair last night.  what an angel she is. it looks so much better than i thought it would.

yesterday, at my cbc i got an rx for the previously mentioned percoset for the hideous bone pain the neulasta is causing.  it’s a good thing i asked for something when i did because now it’s infinitely worse.  yeouch! 

thank you, linda!



tuesday, i’m getting my hair cut off.  this is what came out last time i washed my hair. 

my friend, jocelyne, was over for a playdate with her little man bennett yesterday.  jocelyne is a cancer survivor and i couldn’t wait to get her opinion on my hair loss situation.  i showed her how easily it comes out now and she said it was probably the right time to get it done. 

jocelyne also brought me a bag of chemo fun time treats, which included a hello kitty pez dispenser nugget promptly made her own.  and nugget also received the cutest little “my market” fruit and veggie basket.  we had a blast and can’t wait for another playdate! 

i’m traveling to florida this week for roy’s services and that will give me a chance to focus on something other than my cut-off hair.  might as well take advantage of the distraction, right?

the neulasta is causing some discomfort, just like they said it would, mostly in my back and legs.  i’ll be asking about that when i call nurse beth today to discuss my travel plans  and reschedule my cbc.

all that’s left at our house are a few plants in the garage.  the buyers are doing their walk-through today, so i hope that goes well for them.  nugget daddy spent a lot of time there yesterday sanding and painting over my spackle jobs.  i hope they’re happy to see fresh paint and no nail holes!

nugget daddy has to travel for work today.  the good news is he’ll be bringing nugget’s grandmamie back with him.  auntie barbara and her boys are going to keep nugget and i entertained today.  i’m really looking forward to this playdate!

here are nugget daddy and i at my second abvd chemo session for cycle one.  as soon as i walked in the treament room and started up my usual shtick, nurse dana shrieked out from behind a cutain that that must be me.  then nurse marla and nurse dana fought over who would treat me.  i told them there was plenty of me to go around and they could job share me.  so they did.  i brought my laptop because nurse dana is also from florida and wanted to see pictures from my disney days.  of course those are all in storage, so whatever i had scanned on this machine had to suffice.

i felt worse immediately after this treatment in comparison to the first.  they adjusted my meds that control the side effects so i am not nearly as tired as the last time.  nugget is sleeping with her grandmamie so i can take some lunesta and get uninterrupted sleep.  today, day 16, i feel pretty good.

nurse julie called me this morning to say that yesterday’s cbc came back with a low white blood cell count and that i’d need to come in for a neulasta injection.  no big deal since i live walking distance from the hospital and it’s just a subcutaneous injection to boot.  piece of cake.  i’ll likely be getting it at regular intervals going forward.

i got the call that my big rx sunglasses were finally done, after lots of trial and error, so we headed over to get those after my injection. 

on the way to pick them up i ran my fingers through my hair in lieu of an actual brush and took out more hair than i would have cared to.  ick.  so i promptly donned a scarf once we got home so i wouldn’t be tempted to touch it anymore.  i won’t be hastily lopping it off, though.  i’m going to wait and see just how bad it gets.  rose at motherhood and cancer warned me about that.

here’s an up close and personal peek at my port.  i know some of you are curious.  i know some of you are also now a little queasy.  see how fun this is?

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